You were my best friend for so long... nearly a year I would say? I was so proud to call you my bestfriend for so long, to stand by you through everything that happened.. to help you, to assist you, to turn to you for guidance, for everything. You were my bestfriend and there was nothing I didn't tell you, vice versa. But over the last few months, something changed. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but I think it began from our first real fight - my birthday. You wanted to invite the guy I didn't like, at my birthday. We fought, didn't talk, but we got over it, stronger then ever.
I don't know why our friendship detteriorated but it did, and I guess neither of us did much to stop it. Maybe it was the pressures of year 11, or the beginning of year 12. Maybe it was my restriction to go out, and your new girlfriend responsibilities, but either way, our friendship was on a downfall and I guess neither of us did anything to save it.
So our last fight happened, and then you asked me if I still wanted to be your bestfriend. I was so over it by then, so I was like, whateverrrrrrr, but i honestly didn't want to be your friend anymore... so a week later I told you that I didn't want to. That whole week you put in more effort in trying to befriend me again, then you had in the past month. You called me everynight, trying to call me out, called me more than once, however, I was over it by then. Why hadn't you put in more effort when we were close, but when you saw me out with others, you decided it was time for us to be friends again. No. That wasn't how it worked.
It's been a bit over 2 weeks since we decided we were no longer friends. We still talk here and there but rarely ever. I miss you, I really do, but somehow the absence of your friendship no longer affects me. I no longer think about ways to solve it anymore.... I miss you, but I really don't at the same time.
I guess at this moment I'm feeling a bit confused. I don't know.
But I wish you all the best and now you're just somebody that I use to know.