Im sorry baby, you were the sun and moon to meeeeeeeeee! ill never get over youuuuuuu, youll never get over me :(
Lolsssss. im back to blogspot :-)
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
ATAR/UAC/UNI/COURSES
Here is a list of what I want to put down as my uni preferences (no particular order):
- UNSW: Media (pr and advert)
- UTS: International Business
- UTS: Business
- UNSW: Bachelor in Commerce
- USYD: Media and Communications
- UTS: Comm/law degree (lolol 99% not achievable tbh)
- USYD: School of Business (too prestige for me to get in)
yayayay...... can't wait to go to uni
School fucked me over today.. business raped me hard and the sun gave me cancer. yay.
wow, business exam was pretty damn hard, i didn't stop writing that whole fucking hour lol.
my teacher told me i was going to fail my maths exam. and she wasn't even joking...
english came about and i drowned in homework and worksheets.
and then i walked home and got cancer.
and my dad is yelling in my right ear about how i need an english tutor.
not a great day.
and now here i am.
It's a Friday night and I wish I had finished my hsc so I can go out clubbing, but no. I'm stuck here, at home, watching jersey shore and grey's anatomy and studying for english, maths and ancient history.
sigh, not a very energetic post.. i think i'll write something interesting later :(
wow, business exam was pretty damn hard, i didn't stop writing that whole fucking hour lol.
my teacher told me i was going to fail my maths exam. and she wasn't even joking...
english came about and i drowned in homework and worksheets.
and then i walked home and got cancer.
and my dad is yelling in my right ear about how i need an english tutor.
not a great day.
and now here i am.
It's a Friday night and I wish I had finished my hsc so I can go out clubbing, but no. I'm stuck here, at home, watching jersey shore and grey's anatomy and studying for english, maths and ancient history.
sigh, not a very energetic post.. i think i'll write something interesting later :(
Jeremy Lin.
For those who follow me on twitter or are considered my intimate few, they would know how obsessed I am with JEREMY LIN at the moment, as is half the world!!!
This 23 year old is the first Asian to play in the NBA as well as the first Harvard graduate to play..... Look, I don't like him because he's ugly, I like him because he's Asian, and he did well for himself. It makes me reflect on where my life is going because he's obviously making the most of his. He stuck to Asian traditions and graduated from what I consider the most prestige college in America as well as he has now become an NBA player. I don't follow basketball, and I don't know a lot about it, but even noobs like me know it's not easy to play in the NBA which is why I'm so in awe of him. He's what success looks like in an Asian person. It really is inspiring and it makes me realize that I need to prioritize school and after that I can do whatever the fuck I want.
On top of that he's a really good player. He's won 7 games in a row and his next game is I think tomorrow or the day after! so excited for him ^_^
On top of that he's a really good player. He's won 7 games in a row and his next game is I think tomorrow or the day after! so excited for him ^_^
The saddest thing about creating memories is that that's all they'll ever be, memories. That's all you'll ever have after that moment is created. You can look back and reminisce all you want. You can flick through photos or even watch videos. You can close your eyes and sniff the scent or feel what you once felt but the sad truth is that memory will never come back. You can't relive it, as much as you want to. You only have that 'good time' to reflect upon. The people in those memories have changed. You have changed. Circumstances have changed. The days have changed.
I hate memories. They tend to break me down the most. Knowing that I'll never get that moment back, it actually really scares me.
I hate memories. They tend to break me down the most. Knowing that I'll never get that moment back, it actually really scares me.
Pursuing a career within the business industry
wtf am I thinking. I have a business assignment due tomorrow that I can barely do, yet I've already planned out my future as a business marketer..... lulzz, time to re-evaluate and possibly pick another career path!
So I've fixed this blog up a bit, making it nice n dat, anywho since I deactivated my facebook and I have a shitbox phone now, I think blogspot will be my new "thing".. I dno LOL.
School has been stressful. There hasn't been a day since school started where I don't study/do homework which is crazy because I never use to do anything..... But school is really getting to me. I'm starting to lose my focus and motivation and I'm really doubting my abilities on whether or not I'll get my 90+ Atar. I feel like it's impossible at this point, but maybe after the half yearlies I'll get a clearer picture of what Atar I'm going to get. But yeah, hsc is killing my life, no joke. My school days use to be 8.30-2.50 but now it varies.... some days I'm at school from 7.30-2.50 and other days I'm there from 8-5 which is fucking crazy. There's not a day I don't harass a teacher about something, or I don't question them about exams and hsc. i'm going fucking mental. lol.
BUT something to look forward to is my sister's wedding! it's on the 24th of march so not long to go now, and invites are being released ^_^ I'm really excited because the dress is nice, and I'm older now so I understand more about being a bridesmaid and my friends are coming and I think it'll be a good break right before my half yearlies... BUT I have to lose weight lol :( sighhh* ever since I came back from America (a little more than a year ago) I've been gaining weight like crazy! I've gained 5kg over the pass year, and now i'm so fucking devo 8( my bmi is still ok, but who gives a fuck about that when you can see your arm fat wave back at you when you put your hands up....... seriously. I'm getting really angry with myself though. How did I let my weight get to this stage? not only that, my skin is now affected, leaving me with the most disgusting skin I've ever seen, permanent black pimples and scars. it pisses me off so much!!! How did I become like this......... fml.
ok rant over. Business due in 12hours, time to finish this motherfucker off!!!!!
So I've fixed this blog up a bit, making it nice n dat, anywho since I deactivated my facebook and I have a shitbox phone now, I think blogspot will be my new "thing".. I dno LOL.
School has been stressful. There hasn't been a day since school started where I don't study/do homework which is crazy because I never use to do anything..... But school is really getting to me. I'm starting to lose my focus and motivation and I'm really doubting my abilities on whether or not I'll get my 90+ Atar. I feel like it's impossible at this point, but maybe after the half yearlies I'll get a clearer picture of what Atar I'm going to get. But yeah, hsc is killing my life, no joke. My school days use to be 8.30-2.50 but now it varies.... some days I'm at school from 7.30-2.50 and other days I'm there from 8-5 which is fucking crazy. There's not a day I don't harass a teacher about something, or I don't question them about exams and hsc. i'm going fucking mental. lol.
BUT something to look forward to is my sister's wedding! it's on the 24th of march so not long to go now, and invites are being released ^_^ I'm really excited because the dress is nice, and I'm older now so I understand more about being a bridesmaid and my friends are coming and I think it'll be a good break right before my half yearlies... BUT I have to lose weight lol :( sighhh* ever since I came back from America (a little more than a year ago) I've been gaining weight like crazy! I've gained 5kg over the pass year, and now i'm so fucking devo 8( my bmi is still ok, but who gives a fuck about that when you can see your arm fat wave back at you when you put your hands up....... seriously. I'm getting really angry with myself though. How did I let my weight get to this stage? not only that, my skin is now affected, leaving me with the most disgusting skin I've ever seen, permanent black pimples and scars. it pisses me off so much!!! How did I become like this......... fml.
ok rant over. Business due in 12hours, time to finish this motherfucker off!!!!!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
whacked.
Do you know you still consume me on a daily basis. When we first started talking I liked your appearance, but I don't understand why even today I still give you a second of my day. Why the fuck do I still think about you? you were nothing. No where near intelligent, hardly good looking tbh (nice body but fugly face). What, just because you flirted with me I've fallen dramatically head over heels for you? How fucking sad is that. I hate it that I can't get you out of my head, it fucking pisses me off, and everything that ever happened between us, I wish it never happened.
It's weird that I still think about you.. Because to me right now, you're nothing. No one.
It's weird that I still think about you.. Because to me right now, you're nothing. No one.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
hsc.
It's starting to get to me...... that hsc life. Everyday I think about the hsc and how it'll all be over in less than 11 months. It scares me to think that after those 11 months, my life is pretty much set. I don't want to sound conceited or whatnot, but it's a pretty much guarantee I'd get into one of the uni's I want to (USYD, UTS, UNSW).. it's just a matter of which course I'd get into.... I reckon pretty much anyone can get into those unis cos the ATAR cut-offs for their lowest course is like a 70, so all you'd need to do is average on a band 4 within all your subjects and you'd get into uni, after that you can just pick any course and then second semester comes around and you can go to the course you want. It's not that hard...... Lol. or maybe i'm being silly. Anyways, my parents bought me a new chair to motivate me to study more. It's surprisingly working because all day long I sit in the chair. It's one of those huge leather office/doctor chairs and I LOVE IT. so comfortable, fits my ass so well. LMAO
SIGHHHH* onto more depressing shit, my fitness levels are on a downfall. Eversince my parents left for Vietnam and came back, I haven't been going to the gym properly 8( this SUCKS. I've been eating really late, eating whatever I want, lazing around, not exercising....... i'm going to fucking gain weight like crazy instead of maintaining/losing it.........
BUT tomorrow is a new day and I intend on making the most of it, and by saying that I mean, exercising like a bitch and trying to eat at a minimum?!
sighhhhh, my high school life is coming to an end and I really want to be at a healthier weight range by the time its over, so that after school I can do whatever I WANT! :(
I'm stressed.
SIGHHHH* onto more depressing shit, my fitness levels are on a downfall. Eversince my parents left for Vietnam and came back, I haven't been going to the gym properly 8( this SUCKS. I've been eating really late, eating whatever I want, lazing around, not exercising....... i'm going to fucking gain weight like crazy instead of maintaining/losing it.........
BUT tomorrow is a new day and I intend on making the most of it, and by saying that I mean, exercising like a bitch and trying to eat at a minimum?!
sighhhhh, my high school life is coming to an end and I really want to be at a healthier weight range by the time its over, so that after school I can do whatever I WANT! :(
I'm stressed.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
to my ex best friend.
You were my best friend for so long... nearly a year I would say? I was so proud to call you my bestfriend for so long, to stand by you through everything that happened.. to help you, to assist you, to turn to you for guidance, for everything. You were my bestfriend and there was nothing I didn't tell you, vice versa. But over the last few months, something changed. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but I think it began from our first real fight - my birthday. You wanted to invite the guy I didn't like, at my birthday. We fought, didn't talk, but we got over it, stronger then ever.
I don't know why our friendship detteriorated but it did, and I guess neither of us did much to stop it. Maybe it was the pressures of year 11, or the beginning of year 12. Maybe it was my restriction to go out, and your new girlfriend responsibilities, but either way, our friendship was on a downfall and I guess neither of us did anything to save it.
So our last fight happened, and then you asked me if I still wanted to be your bestfriend. I was so over it by then, so I was like, whateverrrrrrr, but i honestly didn't want to be your friend anymore... so a week later I told you that I didn't want to. That whole week you put in more effort in trying to befriend me again, then you had in the past month. You called me everynight, trying to call me out, called me more than once, however, I was over it by then. Why hadn't you put in more effort when we were close, but when you saw me out with others, you decided it was time for us to be friends again. No. That wasn't how it worked.
It's been a bit over 2 weeks since we decided we were no longer friends. We still talk here and there but rarely ever. I miss you, I really do, but somehow the absence of your friendship no longer affects me. I no longer think about ways to solve it anymore.... I miss you, but I really don't at the same time.
I guess at this moment I'm feeling a bit confused. I don't know.
But I wish you all the best and now you're just somebody that I use to know.
I don't know why our friendship detteriorated but it did, and I guess neither of us did much to stop it. Maybe it was the pressures of year 11, or the beginning of year 12. Maybe it was my restriction to go out, and your new girlfriend responsibilities, but either way, our friendship was on a downfall and I guess neither of us did anything to save it.
So our last fight happened, and then you asked me if I still wanted to be your bestfriend. I was so over it by then, so I was like, whateverrrrrrr, but i honestly didn't want to be your friend anymore... so a week later I told you that I didn't want to. That whole week you put in more effort in trying to befriend me again, then you had in the past month. You called me everynight, trying to call me out, called me more than once, however, I was over it by then. Why hadn't you put in more effort when we were close, but when you saw me out with others, you decided it was time for us to be friends again. No. That wasn't how it worked.
It's been a bit over 2 weeks since we decided we were no longer friends. We still talk here and there but rarely ever. I miss you, I really do, but somehow the absence of your friendship no longer affects me. I no longer think about ways to solve it anymore.... I miss you, but I really don't at the same time.
I guess at this moment I'm feeling a bit confused. I don't know.
But I wish you all the best and now you're just somebody that I use to know.
2012
WOWOW. How long has it been since I last blogged? Two months I think? I felt like blogging today, so, here I am, Lol.
Let me re-cap my holidays so far:
7th december: Parents left for Vietnam
10th dec: Bass control!
16th dec: horrible clubbing experience
17th dec: partyyyy
19th dec: christmas party at mine
22nd dec: 40hour shopping @ parra
23rd dec: BBQ at Henry's (significant moment of my holidays because it introduced me to the people I was to spend the rest of my holidays with).
24th dec: BEACH!!! and out with Kevin, Salina, Henry at night.
25th dec: christmas bbq with my sisters.
26th dec: slept over henrys, boxing day sales in the morning, then beach, then back to his house LOL. nearly spent a legit 24hours with them.
27th - 31st dec: spent with henry and the crew Lollll
31st dec: nye party in smithfield! goood night, haha.
1st jan: slept all day.
2nd jan: beach with the girls
3rd jan: beach with my sister.
4th jan: spent it with jenny le ^_^
5th jan: caught up with jager, valentino etc.
6th jan: MAGIC KINGDOM!
7th jan: beach and a chill bbq and a sleepover + heavy ass dnm at henrys
8th jan: my parents came back
and that's about it! it was such a good break, but during those 4 weeks, I missed my room/house/parents/siblings so much LOL. barely saw them. but it was an extremely good break, but now i'm ready to begin my studying for the hsc! :(
Let me re-cap my holidays so far:
7th december: Parents left for Vietnam
10th dec: Bass control!
16th dec: horrible clubbing experience
17th dec: partyyyy
19th dec: christmas party at mine
22nd dec: 40hour shopping @ parra
23rd dec: BBQ at Henry's (significant moment of my holidays because it introduced me to the people I was to spend the rest of my holidays with).
24th dec: BEACH!!! and out with Kevin, Salina, Henry at night.
25th dec: christmas bbq with my sisters.
26th dec: slept over henrys, boxing day sales in the morning, then beach, then back to his house LOL. nearly spent a legit 24hours with them.
27th - 31st dec: spent with henry and the crew Lollll
31st dec: nye party in smithfield! goood night, haha.
1st jan: slept all day.
2nd jan: beach with the girls
3rd jan: beach with my sister.
4th jan: spent it with jenny le ^_^
5th jan: caught up with jager, valentino etc.
6th jan: MAGIC KINGDOM!
7th jan: beach and a chill bbq and a sleepover + heavy ass dnm at henrys
8th jan: my parents came back
and that's about it! it was such a good break, but during those 4 weeks, I missed my room/house/parents/siblings so much LOL. barely saw them. but it was an extremely good break, but now i'm ready to begin my studying for the hsc! :(
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